hi there! kamu buka ini pas aku udah take off kan? days full of longing will start from here (sedih ajg)

kamu tau kan kak kalau aku berisik dan banyak omong dan banyak ngerengek dan aku selalu ngeluarin everything on my mind ke kamu. tapi selain ke kamu aku juga suka nulis (bukan kamu doang) tapi tulisanku yaa sebatas bacotanku dan tentang kamu aja. i write EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU, kamu bisa lihat kalo nanti aku udah meninggal aja ya aku nggak siap soalnya malu.

kakak im really really really sorry karena harus ninggalin kamu pas lagi sakit begini:( im so sad to see you in pain... i know you're probably hurting so much, but i can't be there with you like i usually am, it breaks my heart because i can't be with you all the time:((

but im always here for you, whenever you need me. even though we're far apart, i'll always be there for you. i'll always try to make you feel like im right there with you.

you don't need to worry about me, because i can take care of myself, aku sudah besarrr aku sudah mau 26 tahun kalau kamu lupa.

KAKAK you have to care of yourself too!!!!! cepet sembuh and do a lot of things!!! and tell me abt everything as usual. cerita apa pun ituuuu, gimana hari kamu, kamu makan apa, kamu minum apa, kamu abis ngapain, bos kamu ngapain, kamu abis pipis POKOKNYA APA PUN ITU my ears are yours!!

don't think too much (but please think abt me too much), don't do anything to harm yourself, don't forget to thank yourself for working hard today and every day.

kita emang lagi jauh, aku nggak bisa selalu on hp dan perbedaan waktu kita cukup jauh. jadi aku buat page buat ur diary. kamu bisa tulis apa pun yang belum bisa kamu kasih tau aku at that time, aku bakal baca itu (serius) and i will leave comments on all your stories. seperti kata aku, aku bakal selalu berusaha biar kamu ngerasa aku di sana, aku deket sama kamu. i will miss you, sayang.

and i made a playlist for you, buat nemenin kamu pulang kerja atau baca buku yang nggak selesai-selesai itu.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5nuHHdhMdKnxK759fN0HSi?si=GdRGfdrUQUOPIIT2X16YTQ